Why I love female pioneers (and you should too)!

But first… Delia Derbyshire everybody!
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Delia Derbyshire (5 May 1937 – 3 July 2001) was an English musician and composer of electronic music.[2] She is best known for her pioneering work with the BBC Radiophonic Workshop during the 1960s, particularly her popular electronic arrangement of the theme music to the British science-fiction television series Doctor Who.[3][4]She has been referred to as “the unsung heroine of British electronic music.”
You can listen to the

Original Dr Who Theme HERE
As created by Delia Derbyshire. 

Her original arrangement served as Doctor Who’s main theme for its first seventeen seasons, from 1963-80. The theme was reworked over the years, to her horror, and the version that had her “stamp of approval” is her original one. She would not be credited on-screen for her work until Doctor Who’s 50th anniversary special, The Day of the Doctor.

(Which aired in 2013 so her first acknowledgement and credit for creating one of the most innovative and well known theme tunes in British Television HIStory …was given over a decade after her death.)

Here’s Delia in the 1970’slooking how most of us would from hearing our creation on telly, every damn week forever, with no credit given.
On 20 November 2017 Derbyshire was awarded a posthumous PhD for her pioneering contributions to electronic music.
How kind. Fat lot of good that’s gonna do her!

So why do I love female pioneers & why should you?

Because they did it anyway. They did it back then. They did it when it was even harder and even more isolating that it is now. For little to no recognition of their achievements during their lifetime and often with the added creative heartbreak, of seeing someone else take the credit. So, unsurprisingly there’s a common theme of addiction and depression in the back stories of female, queer and other marginalized pioneers. Pre-internet options for coping with anxiety, depression, isolation or being “different” – were pretty limited.
The reason we get to have the discourse we have today at all, is because of those who fought for it alone before us, often departing with little to no validation that it was ever going to matter. Lets face it, 2018 and we’re still “trying” to close the pay gap? *eye roll* I’m sure you have your own endless list of Equality Fails too, before we even get to Gender Roles and consequences of not conforming to them. But consider this:

We’re using the most powerful tool a pioneer could ever hope for right now, the internet. Imagine what we could do with “micro-pioneering” in large numbers, in a community.

So go on with your history-making self.  Make it count. Have that voice, Make that choice, Write those words. Reach out. Shine Your Light Bright, So Your “Others” Can Find You.

Below is a piece of music I composed a few years ago in honour of Delia Derbyshire, using her original recording, as a way of bringing it out of the past, into the present where it still belongs. Gratitude for those who walked alone before us, keeps legacies alive. Lest we forget that previous Pioneers already made OUR lives easier in ways we rarely stop to think about.

Check it out!

fuSionEX vs. Derbyshire (Dr Who)


VISIBILITY. Brave. Vulnerable. Fueled by smiles…

I firmly believe that VISIBILITY is one of the most thankless and most vital forms of Daily Activism

Need the quick takeaway?

  • Here is how you can help, fix the thankless bit. A few short easy steps, type *two words, you’re  done!  (*Thank You)
  • Thank activists, thank online community founders, thank those who inspire and uplift you or expend energy trying to
  • Thank other activists, if you are one. That’s how you grow community… it’s not a “Dance Off” from different sides of the room. But do so authentically, don’t be a self serving spam-bot!
  • Why’s it thankless? Because you never know who saw you
  • Why’s it vital? Because you never know who saw you


For the back story on why it’s the best takeaway you’ve had in ages, read on…

IMG_0169 2First, a mysterious graphic to draw you in
Why? That’s at the end haha!


As an introvert I read, research, ponder, observe, appreciate… SO many things, yet rarely take the time to reach outwards. Last year, in an attempt to challenge some of the ruts and plateaus in personal growth this must bring…

  1. I made it a goal to begin saying Thank You to people who contributed to my day to day feelings of enjoyment, or belonging
  2. Meaning say Thank You authentically and directly to … random people, for taking the time and making the effort to provide, something intended to raise up other people in some way. (I do NOT mean writing to celebrities, they get enough praise and attention)
  3. This goal horrifies me. I tend towards short concise emails and hit send before my inner critic catches on and makes me wuss out. If someone replies I get anxiety and just respond with a smile and thumbs up emoji.


Why? Whats the big deal?

Maybe you do this kinda stuff already? Maybe it’s effortless? Or maybe, if you’ve ever been silenced, shutdown, or minimized significantly, either as a child or through an adult relationship, you’ll know how uncomfortable it can be to put yourself back out there and be visible again.

Here is what I’ve learned, from lived experience and from many heart to hearts with friends, who also engage in daily activism through visibility…

To be visible is to be vulnerable.
Don’t be fooled by the performance of it, by swagger or designer labels. We all have our safety shields.
To be visible is to be at risk, putting your core identity on display, is the ultimate form of bravery.

So for you… Yes YOU strutting your visible self out on the street. Know that you’d get a nod from me and my best Ohhhh Heck Yes! smile, for a soul already braver than most.  Because I know how such moments fortify us, through those other moments, when we’d give anything to just be invisible.


Oh look here it is… my best  Ohhhh Heck Yes! smile to help you picture it, aimed in your direction.

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As we’re on smiles, here’s a Big Proud Joyous Grin too…

at being able to support and escort this long time friend, on her first Trans March as an “out” Trans-woman at age 50. A friend who survived the violent attacks on her earlier attempts to shine,  and a moment when “ending it” seemed like a better option than the slower more painful death of the spirit from living in fear, shame and isolation, trying to be invisible. PTSD is no joke.

So  like I said earlier VISIBILITY. Brave. Vulnerable.
Fueled by smiles. Making the world a better place. Be thankful.

The Future Begins

So… what happens if you’re too Weird for the Queers and too Queer for the Weirdos?

Formerly a lot of confusion let me assure you. There’s no loneliness like the loneliness of finding a “community” and …. well, feeling like you’re still not home. Anywhere.

But hey! That was before “genderqueer” existed folks. Before binaries and the lack thereof. Before Lesbians too, because they didn’t exist until Ellen (apparently… judging from the global reaction to it).

Now, everything’s on a “Spectrum” we can do and BE what the heck we want!

Lets Start an Endless Kweirdo Posse.

Then lets enjoy this visual of a spectrum and all the things it’s going to mean for identity.


Too Weird For The Queers and Too Queer For The Weirdos — EKP